es ist fast 1 uhr nachts. heute ist der erste schultag und ich kann nicht schlafen. ich verharre in meinen gedanken,höre philipp poisel und scrolle mir die finger auf tumblr wund. ich vergesse die zeit,versinke in den zeilen der lieder von philipp und in den zeilen der tausenden von posts auf tumblr. meine laune ist so ziemliche tumblrmood. teilweise traurig,nachdenklich bis hin zu verzweifelt oder doch dankbar? jedenfalls bin ich gerade über einen textpost gestolpert,der mich auf ein mal in freude versetzt hat,der mich stärkt und der so ziemlich alles zusammenfast,was einen beschäftigt. (ich bin eigentlich kein mensch vieler worte,vor allem nicht auf meinem blog,dieser text jedoch hat mir so geholfen gerade,dass ich ihn mit euch teilen wollte. vielleicht gefällt er euch ja auch so sehr wie mir und bringt euch zum nachdenken über jeden einzelnen angesprochenen punkt.) seht selbst:

nineteen things i've learned before i turned nineteen. 
1. always carry $5 and a lighter with you (even if you don't smoke). 
2. ask every person you meet how their day is going. genuinely ask with the soul intention of learning how their day is. ask the coffee shop employee. ask the person next to you in line at walmart. ask your distant friend. ask everyone. 
3. take many photos of yourself. take photos of yourself when you're happy. take photos of yourself when you're sad. take photos of yourself because there are millions of trees in the world,and we all look at the same sky,but there is only one of you. 
4. stay in contact with your parents. try not to hate them. they are the reason you have the ability to feel anything at all. try not to hate your parents. 
5. opening your skin will not set your demons free. open your heart. open your mind. open your hands. 
6. nobody knows anybody completely. that's okay. 
7. be gentle,but be aggressive. take a stand. nobody hears your voice if you stay silent. 
8. respect everybody. we are all humans trying to survive. we all deserve respect. 
9. wearing black will ALWAYS make you feel better about yourself. 
10. always give tips,whether it be a couple extra dollars or a piece of mind. you never know how much you could be helping someone. 
11. change is the only thing consistent in life. do not allow that bother you. embrace change and move with life,whichever direction it chooses to take you. 
12. smile often. smile at strangers. smile at your friends. smile when nobody is looking and you're alone in your bedroom. smile when somebody is rambling to you. 
13. body image means nothing. your body is merely just a seatbelt in the car. your body is here to protect you. you choose the direction you go,and your body will not hold you back. only you can hold yourself back. 
14. don't hold grudges. don't allow yourself to hate anybody. forgive them. learn to love them for the person you never got to see them to be. believe that a beautiful human exists in that person. wish them well. 
15. drink orange juice. lots of it. 
16. don't allow the opinions of others to choose your destiny. we are all simply trying to live our own life. 
17. sing all the time. sing off key. sing in a silly voice. sing like you're on stage. sing no matter who is around. singing is breathing for the soul. sing. 
18. take time to think. write your feelings down. write letters to the people you love. texting is overrated and not as heartfelt as a nice handwritten letter. 
19. live for yourself. breathe for yourself. do everything in your life for nobody but you. this is your life. this is it.


nonebutyouu Sandi hat gesagt…

so schöne Fotos wieder von dir :)
und der Text gefällt mir auch sehr, gleich mal gespeichert!!
Ganz liebe Grüße Sandi ♥

Lala hat gesagt…

Den Textpost hab ich kürzlich auch entdeckt, ich mag den total!